Black Cloud

Have you ever had someone in your life that just the very thought of them makes the pit of your stomach knot up? It isn't a hate type thing it is more of a black cloud. You have known them for years and because of all of the ugliness you are just done with them but every once in awhile you will see something that reminds you of them and the black cloud comes seeping back in. Even if it is for a moment that is too long of a time to allow them back in. It is very sad to me because of all of the missed blessings if only things could have been different but they never will be. Time and time again chances have been given and the person just tosses them aside like they are old dirty rags. Disgarding your feelings because deep down inside they are bitter and mean. I can never imagine going back to a time of allowing the black cloud to be an every day part of my life. I live in the light and have no room for black clouds.