Surfacing

A lot of stuff seems to be surfacing. I have pushed down so much pain over the past few years and now it is all coming to the surface. I am glad. Now I can learn to deal with it and heal. I will never be a whole person until I start dealing with this crap. Last year I was hurt by someone I thought loved me but obviously didn't. I was always there for this person and went out of my way to make her feel like she was a sister to me and not just a friend. This pain has been with me since then and I have decided that how I feel about her and what happened is what I am going to focus on over the next few days. I am going to process how I feel about it then I will have to let it go. The pain has been holding on for too long and it is time to walk away from it. I can't change the past or what happened but I can stop it from changing who I am.