Kitten heels and pink polish

So yesterday when I was getting ready for church I decided to wear some heels. I haven't worn heels in several years. I wore the heels yesterday not because I was rewarding myself for losing weight like I have in the past. I wore them simply because I wanted to. I have to admit they made me feel spunky. Very spunky. So did the hot pink nail polish I had on. Sounds weird that just two little things can make a woman feel sexier but I find it to be very true. I think too often women don't do little things for themselves to feel good. We spend so much time taking care of others and trying to be Super Woman that we often overlook our own selves. We push aside things that make us feel good until the point that we become miserable and down on ourselves. For the past 6 months that's exactly where I have been. Miserable and down. But something about those kitten heels and the pink polish has given me a little boost. I feel at least a few layers of misery being pushed back and a litle more of me coming forward. I know that getting over the past 6 months is not going to be an easy task but I know I will triumph over the sadness that I have endured. I also know I will come out stronger than before.

Small things add up

I am doing this routine every morning when I wake up and right before I go to bed: 15 jumping jacks, 2 pushups, 10 crunches, 10 mountain climbers, and 10 sec plank. I am keeping the amount I do low so I don't get frustrated. Not sure how many calories I will burn and don't really care. Just wanting to gain my strength back. I have not had a Sprite today either. Just 5 more days until my splurge day. I feel great today!

Competition

 

I have signed up for a weight loss competition that is being done through a local news channel. I submitted my story and I am now waiting to see if I was picked or not. I am so excited. I am hoping this will give me back the motivation that I need. Fingers crossed! Even if I am not picked I still have challenged myself. I have a few things on my "Get Fit" challenge. First up: Add one second per day while planking. Yup I am going to attempt to plank....everyday! #2-No Sprite! That's it. Just two little changes this week. I will check back in mid-week to update on my progress.

One sided people= Boring people

One sided people annoy me. Yeah I said it and yes I let a certain type of person bother me. Maybe because in the past I have been one sided myself. Once I get into something I go at it 100% and push everything else aside. I let it become who I am and it defines me until the point I am exhausted and don't even recognize myself. Life is to short to just have one focus in life. Sure its good to get your workouts in, eat healthy, get good grades in school, volunteer at a non-profit, etc. But in my opinion a well rounded, strong person can fit all of those into life. The more versatile you are and the more active you are in ALL aspects of life the happier, healthier you are. Plus you come across as less annoying. I can only imagine how many times people would roll their eyes at me when I was going on and on about weight loss, working out or school work. It is hard but I try my best to not be so one sided anymore.

Healthy and wise

     I am in no way shape or form an expert on weight loss. But I can tell you a few things that do not work: laxatives, binge diets, fad diets, and laying on the couch. I have done them all. Sure some of the things I listed might work for awhile but in the end you will either wind up unhealthy or gain your weight back. I think the only true way to weight loss is through eating healthy and working out. And when I say eating healthy I don't mean starving yourself. I am totally in love with My Fitness Pal. It not only keeps me on track to not go over my calories it also keeps me on track to not go under. My weight loss is about being healthy and being under calories is just as detrimental to my health as being over. I also keep a count of my sodium intake and my fat intake. Having a high sodium and fat intake is in no way shape or form good for my heart. I have switched my focus to making sure ALL of my calories provide the correct amount of fat, sodium, carbs, etc. Binge eating my way through weight loss is also no longer an option for me. I used to be the world's worst about saving all of my calories to one meal a day. All that does is overload your system. Sure you might have weight loss results from doing this but shoot you can lose weight by smoking crack but it doesn't mean its healthy. Anywho! I have a busy day planned for today which includes hitting the gym even if its for a little while. I am not in a competition with others just myself. If the chick on the treadmill next to me is running 100 mph and has ran 10 miles I care not. All I care about is beating my own record. She will go home satisfied with her time and distance and so will I. Even if all I can do is 10 minutes. I still did 10 minutes.

Free your mind and the rest will follow

     Its been a few weeks since I have blogged and I sure have missed it. Blogging seems to be the best source of therapy for me. I have lost a few pounds since the last time I blogged. It seems like everytime I get to doing good with my weight loss something happens that takes me off of my path. Its my own fault. I shouldn't allow life to stop me from reaching my goals. I need to take all of the negative energy and use it when I run. Life didn't cause me to gain weight. I allowed it to happen. I didn't have to turn to food or the couch for comfort. I chose to do that. Heartaches come and go but you only have one body. Allowing myself to destroy my body then blame it on heartaches is not me. Even if I put 5 minutes a day into doing something for my health then I am on the right track. Its does take running a 5k everyday to be healthy. Little things can add up to major milestones. Somewhere deep inside of me I still have the inner strength and slowly but surely I am finding my way to it. A friend of mine gave me some great advice when I first started running. She said that when you are running and everytime your foot hits the ground you are stomping out negative things that go on in your life. She told me to imagine that the negative things are under my feet and that I am stomping the crap out of them with each step that I take. I have taken that advice a bit further. Everytime I reach my arm to stretch or push away dessert I visualize negative things floating away. Doing small thing to free my mind of the negative with result in my body following suit. You have to free your mind of garbage before you can truly become healthy.

Motivation

I have been doing all that I can to get motivated to go to the gym today. I finally talked myself into going and while I was there I had to talk myself into staying for the full 30 minutes. I did complete my 30 minutes and on the way out of the gym I saw one of my friends. She said that she had seen my truck sitting in front of them gym and that motivated her to go home, change her clothes, and come back to the gym. It made me feel great that even though I feel I have fallen so far down that I can still motivate someone. It motivated me so much that I have decided to start going to the gym at the same time on the same days every week so people will know they aren't alone and that they have someone to work out with.